Travellers Stream

If there’s one thing I would change about myself, it would be my habit of putting my own needs on mute while turning up the volume for everyone else. For years, I genuinely believed that being kind meant being available all the time — saying yes, adjusting, understanding, and absorbing. I thought that was what made relationships work.

But somewhere along the way, I realised something important:
I was giving my whole heart to people who never showed up with even half of theirs.

I would pour my energy, my time, my softness… and then wonder why I felt empty at the end of the day. I kept thinking I was being strong, but really, I was slowly abandoning myself.

If I could change one thing about myself, it would be this pattern — this instinct to keep peace outside while creating chaos inside.

I want to learn to speak up instead of swallowing my feelings.
I want to take up space instead of shrinking to make others comfortable.
I want to choose myself without feeling guilty about it.

And no, this isn’t about becoming harder or colder. In fact, it’s the opposite. It’s about becoming more authentic, more aligned, and more respectful toward my own heart. It’s about finally understanding that boundaries aren’t signs of distance — they are signs of self-respect.

I’m learning to receive the same kind of love and effort I always give away so easily. I’m learning that reciprocity isn’t a luxury; it’s a basic emotional need.

This is the version of me I’m trying to grow into — someone who still loves deeply, but also loves herself enough to stop pouring into cups that never pour back.

Take care of your heart 💜

Shama ✨